Monday, October 10, 2011 ; 3:52 AM
Ma, Im sorry you have to do all the house chores at home.
I know how much you wanted a daughter so that she can help you do some of the work.
Im not always at home and you will feel lonely at times.
But Ma, im outside, doing so much work so that i can buy something i need or want.
I hope you understand that i dont want to burden becos i love you ma.
I know that every time i step out of the door to earn some money by riding a bike, you will carry a heavy heart wif you until i come back home safely.
But Ma, Im earning clean money Ma, so dont worry.
Yes, its dangerous, but Death is in God's hand Ma.
Just for your info, i fell from the bike when it was raining.
I dont want to tell you cos i know it will do some abrasion to your heart.
But Thank Allah, im okay, im still breathing just next to your room.
What im trying to say here Ma, im trying my very best not to burden you wif the finance. So please dont scold me if im not helping you wif the chores cos im tired from working Ma. I know we are not rich, we are not well off. Im old enough, i wont blame you or blame the situation.
Ma, i understand that.
You know what are my dreams for you Ma?
Firstly, i want to see you go to Mecca, go to Haji. I will save up for you Ma, I will.
Secondly, i want you to have your own eating stall. I know how much you love to cook.
If that came true, wouldnt it be nice, right Ma?
But listen Ma, if one day, Im no longer here, please do take care of yourself and dont work too much.
And please dont cry infront of me.
Your tears are so much painful than a thousand bullets spear through my body.
No Ma, im not sick.
Since im free right now, i just want to express my feelings.
Hope this thing wont die till forever.
This blog, is like my life journal.
I will show it to my kids one day.
Ma, i may not be the sweetest son like some mothers have out there.
Those sons who msg "i love you" to their mother everyday.
Because the love i have for you Ma, words cant handle it.
Thats all im going to say for today.
Love your mother with all your heart.
Lovers, anytime you can find.
But theres only one mother, no more, no less.
So dont shout at them when shes being unreasonable.
Shes just tired.
Goodnight all, Goodnight Ma.
