Monday, October 10, 2011 ; 3:52 AM
Ma, Im sorry you have to do all the house chores at home.
I know how much you wanted a daughter so that she can help you do some of the work.
Im not always at home and you will feel lonely at times.
But Ma, im outside, doing so much work so that i can buy something i need or want.
I hope you understand that i dont want to burden becos i love you ma.
I know that every time i step out of the door to earn some money by riding a bike, you will carry a heavy heart wif you until i come back home safely.
But Ma, Im earning clean money Ma, so dont worry.
Yes, its dangerous, but Death is in God's hand Ma.
Just for your info, i fell from the bike when it was raining.
I dont want to tell you cos i know it will do some abrasion to your heart.
But Thank Allah, im okay, im still breathing just next to your room.
What im trying to say here Ma, im trying my very best not to burden you wif the finance. So please dont scold me if im not helping you wif the chores cos im tired from working Ma. I know we are not rich, we are not well off. Im old enough, i wont blame you or blame the situation.
Ma, i understand that.
You know what are my dreams for you Ma?
Firstly, i want to see you go to Mecca, go to Haji. I will save up for you Ma, I will.
Secondly, i want you to have your own eating stall. I know how much you love to cook.
If that came true, wouldnt it be nice, right Ma?
But listen Ma, if one day, Im no longer here, please do take care of yourself and dont work too much.
And please dont cry infront of me.
Your tears are so much painful than a thousand bullets spear through my body.
No Ma, im not sick.
Since im free right now, i just want to express my feelings.
Hope this thing wont die till forever.
This blog, is like my life journal.
I will show it to my kids one day.
Ma, i may not be the sweetest son like some mothers have out there.
Those sons who msg "i love you" to their mother everyday.
Because the love i have for you Ma, words cant handle it.
Thats all im going to say for today.
Love your mother with all your heart.
Lovers, anytime you can find.
But theres only one mother, no more, no less.
So dont shout at them when shes being unreasonable.
Shes just tired.
Goodnight all, Goodnight Ma.
Monday, October 3, 2011 ; 3:55 AM
I think i have the answer for you guys who are still wondering on..
"Why happiness last for awhile?"
You see guys..
Happiness is like Sun..
It cant be wif us all the time within the 24 hours we have in a day..
But! Its not gone forever, am i right?
It will be back once night has ended..
So in life, we cant have happiness all the time like how we want the sun not to set..
Appreciate it and dont be upset once its gone cos remember, it will come back.
So even the Happiness is gone for a short while, dont frown.
Smile like how i did in the picture below this.
Ooops. Not this one ah. This one a bit disgusting. Haha. Wait ah, i find more decent and less Potential-To-Vomit picture.. Hah. Hmmm... Ah'huh! This one should be fine!
Hehehehe. It takes a lot of muscle to frown. So smile more! If some of you dont like to smile this way cos maybe your middle tooth is gone becos you bite a rock or you have fang teeth like a Zubat(Digimon), its okay! You can always smile like this!
Ahhhhh. Actually im not that bad looking what, right? xD
Not self-proclaim laa.. Just to make myself feel better only what.. hahah.
So those who are suffering from sadness becos you cant get the person you dream of, put a stop to it. But dont ever end your story there. I believe, someone close to you, have been loving you secretly but scared to confess to you. Worry that it will make things awkward or destroy the friendship. Listen, if someone confess to you their feelings, never reject it directly. Even if you feels that both of you better off stay as friends, then take it slow and tell them indirectly. In that way, both party wont get hurt and with God's will, things will remain the same.
What? Huh? Who? Me? Ouh of cos laa i have a crush. heheh. Dont want to say laa.. I shy laa.. Hahaha. Alah, its only a crush. Its like Oreo crush ice blended with no pearl, it wont last for long. Hahaha. But im not close wif her, so confessing to her is not a good idea ah. For that, i have yet to find the solution. Haha. But what makes me attracted to her is her mysterious personality. haha.
Why i said mysterious? Ouh.. Becos to me, shes like a goodie bag. You wont know whats inside. She can be cute at times. Hahah. But, aiyaa.. Im a person who believes in fate. I know now 2011 already and its old-fashion to believe in these things but oh well, i do. Haha. See where will fate bring me. (:
Oh before i end this.. Something to share wif you guys before i go to sleep..
Before i sleep, i always hope that one day, i will be standing there, rowing the gondola in Venice. I always dream of that. I know i dont talk about art that much but secretly, i wish that i could live there one day, a place where art is everywhere, beautiful. Rowing while singing my heart out, i couldnt ask for more. Especially when youre wif the love of your life. Cheyy. haha.
Yup, its my another dream, to be a Gondola rower.
Im not sure if youre reading this, but yeah, it is still my dream. Haha.
Goognight!
