Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ; 9:21 PM
Good morning Mrs. Tang,Mr Nathan and fellow springfielders..
Okay,crap. Im out of greetings. Haish.
My life sucks ah. But i know there are others which sucks more than me..x))
But true wad!-.-
Eu wanna know sumthing?
Well,my results for Mid-year were totally,mentally and physically ATROCIOUS!
I repeat myself 20 times,ATROCIOUS! Haishhhhhh.
Im taking my O'levels this year and this is how im performing?
Chop2 i will be schooling at Malaysia,the one that need to wear 'songkok' to school that one..x))
Serious siaa.. I was like.."Waah..Disgracing siaa!" and Rikh can still say.."Okay per!" wif his face full of taik kucing!x)
Okay your head lah okay! ahah.
Then when others were happy wif their results for one of their subjects like art,i was sitting at my seat,in between the people and reflect on my results...
Suddenly i felt the classroom was dark and the light was shining on me only..
I can feel the sorrowness,emptiness,lousiness,sadness and all the nesses..
I wanted to scream but somehow it seems that the volume of this world was muted..
I saw people shouting and laughing but i cant hear them..
Then after making a curious face,then i realised that i was in my heart,searching for answers that were left unanswered..
Tears started to flow like how the Merlion vommit the water..
I was holding a candle that was still lighted..
The reason that tears started to flow was becos the wax kept on dripping on my hands and it hurts.. Not becos of other possible reasons..
Then i started to think of possibilities wif questions in my head..
But somehow i managed to answer them all..
Question:"What if i fail my O'levels and i cant be a police officer,how?"
Answer:"Be a security guard at Springfield secondary school."
Question:"If i have 5 children,how am i gonna feed them wif the salary of a security guard?"
Answer:"Abandon them and run away like Mas selamat. All becos of 'We the kings' uh..The check yes Juliet song..The chorus is.."Run baby run.." waad!"
Question:"And if i run away,when i grow old,who will take care of me?"
Answer:"The Metta Welfare Association near my block there."
Haish.. I know its kinda lame,especially my answers for the questions..
But bear wif it lor.. Fated already right..
This is my last chance! There will be no more wake up call for me!
Where can have so many wake up call,later bill high how? Who's gonna pay for it?
Kay lame!-.-"
This is my wake up call! I need time to study as im a slow learner..
So i need to sacrifice uhs..
The first thing that i will sacrifice is work!
Its very heartbreaking to leave them but i cant do anything..
So i hope eu all understand uh why June im not coming back..
Not becos i have been kidnapped or something uhs..
Not only that,i think im gonna stay wif my grandmother uh untill O'levels are over..
I cant study at home uh.. The environment just dont seems to be right..
So which means that i cant go online or update anymore.. Haishhhh.
Maybe this saturday im gonna shift my things there uh..
Okay laa..
Dont wanna right long2 as i got feedbacks that people wont tend to read my blog when my post is very long..
So yeah,all the best for me and to eu all too!
Gudnite&Love eu~
Bye Barney&Friends(;
Labels: I hope all the sacrifices that will be made is worth it.
